Back when I was in college, I had no idea that I would end up working as a life purpose coach. Even to this day, it makes me wonder, ‘how did it all happen’?

As a student in college, I was really struggling and barely passing to get through. I was the only guy from my stoner group to make it in the first year. Everyone else was kicked out from the college but I have heard they are in a good place now.

So what made me want to change the way I lived and the way I was. I knew very well in my heart that I had a lot of love waiting to express itself. I did not have issues with my attitude or behavior.

It’s just that I had not explored what I could be as an ideal self. Every day was very random with less conscious intention and mostly in a survival mode. Survival emotions are mostly of fear, anger, guilt and worthlessness.

The only way to blow off some steam was to smoke some green and let it all go. In those moments I could feel the grass being greener, sounds being clearer and the joy inside me taking over. It was truly an experience I looked forward to everyday.

For nearly two years of my life, the one goal for the day would be to get the green and blow off some steam. That means my attention was never in other areas of my life. I have lot of respect for the green because I know amazing, creative and energetic people who use it and are still able to keep it real. Besides, the healing properties that it possesses are countless.

I am just writing my experience of not being aware with other aspects of my life. Gradually, I realized my attention needs to be on other important aspect of my life like family, career, relationships, personal growth and spirituality.

That meant I was using it in a lesser quantity then I had been. I found myself excelling in college, extra-curricular activities and making steps towards my ideal self every day.

I had more confidence, more love and more compassion that was oozing out of me. Meditation played a big role in this because I was experiencing the same type of high which the green was giving me but now it was all self induced. I found myself being more interested in spirituality and psychology that anything else.

Like a moth to a flame, I was attracting people who were in the same journey and some who had reached a certain level of understanding which was beyond any understanding. This gave me a firm foundation to build upon. The focus now for me was to find myself and who I really was. This question opened me up completely. My beliefs and concepts about my identity and stories started fading away.

It was clear now that from this awareness of no concept and no thingness arises an inner peace and bliss that is beyond any words. It also became evident that people who have achieved both in the realm of spirituality and materialism invite this to completely re-affirm new identities, new beliefs, new values, new attitudes, new behaviors, new emotions and new actions that create a completely new reality into their lives.

Life is lived inside out and the only way to transform is in those moments of absolute oneness and love that starts bringing a new understanding to what we think about the world and people around us.

When Swami Vivekanda said, “See every one as god” it must have come from what he was experiencing inside him. When Buddha said, “With our thoughts, we make the world” it must have come from the same experience inside him. When Jesus said, “The kingdom of heaven lie in you” it must have come from the same experience inside him.

As you feel connected with my story and you also feel like you are on a verge of a transformation, just know that I will be there to support you anyway I can. This is really important because I have many people who helped thorough this process.